tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post6279200551240912786..comments2023-12-26T08:22:44.107-05:00Comments on The Second Awakening: Bonne AnnéeC. L. Minouhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14249398357159535411noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-78256265283514492782010-01-25T17:48:27.952-05:002010-01-25T17:48:27.952-05:00Fashionably late to the comment party I realise, s...Fashionably late to the comment party I realise, still, this resonated. Depression is fuckawful and I'm a great admirer of depressed bloggers or anyone that channels creative energy whilst suffering from depression because it makes you feel so much smaller, so much less significant than your problems and saps at the confidence necessary to get your art out there. I'm lucky to live in Britain where prescriptions for medication are heavily subsidised (the American healthcare system makes me so very, very angy) but for an array of complex reasons I don't partake myself. Still, I've been there; the awkward conversations in the work place where you feel like you're coming out in some respect when you have to eventually admit you suffer from depression, the anxiety, the hopelessness and in my case bouts of self-destructive rage where I'm just so angry with myself for not working "properly" and just want to be content like everyone else seems to be.<br /><br />The pain doesn't stop, you just learn to cope better. Keep on keeping on. It seems that you're doing a pretty good job.orestesnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-72135572225544653552010-01-09T08:27:57.271-05:002010-01-09T08:27:57.271-05:00I'm amazed at how similar a territory we just ...I'm amazed at how similar a territory we just trod in the past few months. I also quit my meds this fall. And then lost a contract I was counting on, and hit the worst financial snag I've had in years. And then after spiralling down slowly, spiralled down really, really fast.<br /><br />I went to the emerg too. And even stayed in the hospital for a few days. My Canuck insurance doesn't cover the meds, but it did cover the hospital stay. I'm very happy that the help was available when I needed it.<br /><br />I'm still pretty fragile. The trees are thinning out, but so slowly.<br /><br />Depression of this ilk... Yeah, it's not just feeling sad or hopeless. It's being in excruciating pain, except the pain is happening to your mind, instead of a body part. The sadness and despair are so intense, they are not feelings any more, they are the air - toxic air.<br /><br />I'm glad you are better. And somehow it makes me feel better that someone else knows this experience and can talk about it. I can't talk about it as openly. I tried to, and then deleted the post.<br /><br />-- SpatulaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-87326471103589120092010-01-08T11:54:56.720-05:002010-01-08T11:54:56.720-05:00I'm glad to here that things are looking up fo...I'm glad to here that things are looking up for you. Also, kudos on the incredibly brave post. It can be really powerful to talk honestly and openly about depression, but wow can it be hard. All the best to you.eastsidekatehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07375011642061094187noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-48750174574682688082010-01-07T21:14:46.516-05:002010-01-07T21:14:46.516-05:00What Emily said. And I'm so glad you had a c...What Emily said. And I'm so glad you had a chance to see L.<br /><br />Love, DonnaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-53442551625789748072010-01-07T07:02:00.073-05:002010-01-07T07:02:00.073-05:00I know so well what you mean and I think you'v...I know so well what you mean and I think you've described depression just perfectly. I'm really glad that the sunlight is coming through again and I wish you all the best for continued sunlight! :)Emilyhttp://www.transkitten.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2086522799678977282.post-51008129293181848112010-01-06T23:33:27.619-05:002010-01-06T23:33:27.619-05:00I know nothing about depression. Maybe this will h...I know nothing about depression. Maybe this will help a little, probably not. But here goes. Over to the right you will see under your "Friends of the Blog" section, noted and blogged's most recent post is "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful." Well, you're just as beautiful as Sandyshoes. See http://capriceglob.blogspot.com/2010/01/im-beautiful-blogger.htmlcapricehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06724714559985306062noreply@blogger.com